ʻO nā ʻoihana hoʻolaha he nui o kahi iho-Saboteur

ʻO kekahi poʻe, e like me Leonardo da Vinci, hāʻawi i nā makana i kekahi mau kahua. ʻO kekahi poʻe kahi hana nui a kahi leʻaleʻa a lākou e hoʻomaʻamaʻa koʻikoʻi ai. (ʻO Philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche, ʻo kahi laʻana, haku mele.) He mau ʻoihana ʻē aʻe kā kekahi. (Ua hana ʻo Kauka Peter Attia ma ke ʻano he kauka, kākāʻōlelo, ʻenekinia, a me ka mea hoʻokahakaha pū kekahi.) (He mau limahana makemake nui ʻia lākou ma muli o ka hiki ke hoʻololi ʻia, he hua hoʻohui maoli i ka hoʻokele waiwai e hoʻololi wikiwiki ana.)

Akā no kēlā me kēia kanaka i kūleʻa pono i nā wahi ʻoi aku ma mua o hoʻokahi, aia kekahi mau mea e lū i ko lākou manamana wāwae i loko o ka wai o nā kahawai like ʻole me ka hohonu ʻole. Hoʻāʻo lākou i kēia, kēlā, a me nā mea ʻē aʻe, i ka ʻimi ʻana i “ka mea maoli.” Manaʻoʻiʻo lākou he kālena kā lākou kekahi mea akā ʻaʻole ʻike i kēlā mea. Me he mea lā iā lākou inā lākou e ʻike i ke kahua kūpono, e ʻike nō lākou e hoʻokaʻawale iā lākou iho.

Hōʻike ʻo Edith Wharton i kekahi kanaka e like me kēia, kahi ʻōpio i kapa ʻia ʻo Dick Peyton, i loko o ka puke Kahu Hoano . ʻAʻole hiki i ka makuahine o Dick ke hoʻomanawanui e ʻike iā Dick e lilo i "mea loaʻa kālā wale nō" a paipai i kahi aʻo liberal wale nō e ʻike i ka naʻau a Dick a me kāna mau makemake e neʻe wikiwiki. Kākau ʻo Wharton:

ʻO nā mea āna e leʻaleʻa ai makemake ʻo ia e hoʻomaʻamaʻa, a ua hele ʻo ia mai ke mele i ka pena ʻana, mai ka pena ʻana a i ka hoʻolālā ʻana, me ka maʻalahi o ka manaʻo o kona makuahine e hōʻike ana i ke kumu ʻole ma mua o ke kālena nui.

He aha ka hana i nā hihia e like me Dick's? He aha ka mea e wehewehe ai i ka haʻalulu a me ke kanalua ʻole?

ʻO kahi pane hiki ke loaʻa i kahi kanaka nā manaʻo kūpono ʻole o ka wikiwiki a maʻalahi hoʻi e hiki ke hoʻokō ʻia. He ʻoiaʻiʻo e hiki koke mai ke kūleʻa i kekahi, akā he kakaikahi loa ia - ʻaʻole kahi mea e piliwaiwai ai - a ʻoi aku, he hōʻino paha ka pōmaikaʻi ma mua o ka hoʻomaikaʻi. ʻO kekahi mau mea hana keaka keiki, no ka laʻana, ʻaʻole hele i ka hana makua ma mua o ka hoʻāʻo ʻana, a kū paha nā ʻoihana o nā mea kākau nāna ka puke mua i paʻi. (Ua like paha kēlā me Harper Lee, ka mea kākau o Iā Pepehi i kahi Mockingbird , a iā J.D. Salinger, ka mea kākau o ʻO ka Catcher i ka Rye .)

Hōʻike ʻo Wharton he mea ʻē aʻe ʻē aʻe na Dick, kahi mea hiki ke kōkua i ka wehewehe ʻana i ke ʻano o kona ola: ʻaʻole lawa ʻo ia i ka hoʻokele kūloko. ʻLelo ʻo ia i ka mea aʻe e pili ana i ka hopena a ka makuahine o Dick i ko Dick hoihoi mau pono:

Ua ʻike ʻo ia ma muli o ke ʻano maʻamau o kēia mau hoʻololi, ʻaʻole no ka hoʻohewa ponoʻī iā ʻoe iho, akā no ka hoʻonāwaliwali kūwaho. ʻO kēlā me kēia hoʻoliʻiliʻi o kāna hana ua lawa ia e hōʻoia iā ia i ka makehewa o ka alualu ʻana i kēlā ʻano hana noʻeau, a ua hana ka hopena i ka manaʻo paʻa maoli ua ʻike ʻia ʻo ia e hoʻomālamalama i kekahi ʻano hana.

Minamina, ʻaʻole ia e ukali mai ka ʻoiaʻiʻo ua ʻeha ʻoe i kahi ʻāpana āu i koho ʻia ai e loaʻa ka kūleʻa nui ma kahi ʻē aʻe. ʻO ka mea nui, ua nui nā hemahema o kēlā me kēia kanaka kūleʻa. (ʻ saidlelo ʻia ua uila ʻo Benjamin Franklin iā ia iho i ka hana o ka hoʻokolohua uila; Ua hoʻāʻo paha ʻo Thomas Edison i mau haneli mau mea no ka waihona ma ke kukui ma mua o ka loaʻa ʻana o kahi mea e hana ana; a ʻo Leonardo da Vinci, like me ka hana ʻana ma nā papahana like ʻole ʻaʻole i pan.) Eia hou, ʻo ka mea kūleʻa loa e pono e hana me ka hoʻopiʻi. ʻOiai ke hoʻohuli nei kekahi iā lākou iho ua alakaʻi hewahewa nā loiloi āpau o kā lākou hana a makemake lākou e kuhi hewa ʻia nā poʻe loea, ʻo nā mea ʻē aʻe, e like me Dick, hāʻawi i ka hōʻailona mua o nā manaʻo maikaʻi ʻole a ma kahi o ka hoʻohana ʻana i ka loiloi e like me ka ʻike e hiki ke kōkua i kahi mea e hoʻomaikaʻi ai, hoʻopau lākou i ka e hoʻāʻo a pau a e ʻimi i kahi mea hou, no kahi māla i maʻa ʻole mai kā lākou manaʻo, kahi i ho'āʻo ʻole ai i kekahi mea, ʻaʻohe o lākou hemahema.

ʻO ko ka makuahine ʻo Dick Peyton - ʻoiai ʻoiai ʻaʻohe ona kālā he nui - uku ʻo ia iā Dick e hele i kahi kula ʻoihana wae no ʻehā mau makahiki ma hope o ke koleke me ka lana o ka manaʻo he "papa aʻo maoli" a me ka hoʻokūkū ma ka ʻaoʻao o nā haumāna loea ʻē aʻe. hoʻoponopono i kāna mau ʻano lauwili. ” Akā ʻoiai e holo pono ana ʻo Dick i ke kula, ʻaʻole maopopo iā ia nā mea e pono ai e kūleʻa ai i ka honua maoli. Wahi a Wharton i ka mea aʻe e pili ana i ka ulu ʻana o ka hana a Dick ma hope o ke kula kiʻi.

Pani i nā lanakila maʻalahi o kāna haumāna ʻana ma laila i kū mai ai ka haʻalulu o ka nānā ʻole o ka lehulehu. ʻO Dick, i kona hoʻi ʻana mai Palisa mai, ua hana ʻo ia i kahi hui me kahi mea kālaiʻike i loaʻa he mau makahiki hoʻomaʻamaʻa hoʻomaʻamaʻa ma kahi keʻena ʻo Nu Ioka; akā ʻo ka Gill mālie a ʻeleu hoʻi, ʻoiai ua hoihoi ʻo ia i ka ʻoihana hou i kekahi mau hana liʻiliʻi i kahe mai ka ʻoihana o kāna luna hana mua, ʻaʻole hiki iā ia ke hoʻopilikia i ka lehulehu me kona hilinaʻi ponoʻī i nā kālena a Peyton, a ke hoʻāʻo nei i kahi akamai ka mea i manaʻo he hiki iā ia ke hana i nā hale aliʻi e kāohi i kāna mau hana i ke kūkulu ʻana i nā hale noho kaiāulu a i ʻole ka hoʻolālā ʻana i nā loli maʻalahi i nā hale pilikino.

ʻO ka nīnau nui ma aneʻi inā pili ka hemahema o Dick me ke tālena a me ke ʻano. Makemake ka wahine Dick e male, ʻo Clemence Verney, manaʻoʻiʻo ia na ke ʻano o ke ʻano, e ʻōlelo ana i ka makuahine o Dick:

ʻAʻole hiki i kekahi ke aʻo i ke kāne i ke akamai, akā inā loaʻa iā ia e hōʻike paha kekahi iā ia pehea e hoʻohana ai. ʻO ia ka mea aʻu e maikaʻi ai, ʻike ʻoe-e hoʻomau iā ia i kāna mau manawa kūpono.

ʻO ka ʻoiaʻiʻo, ua ʻoi aku ke kālena a Dick e kahi hoa aloha nui o kāna, he kamaliʻi ʻōpio i kapa ʻia ʻo Paul Darrow. Eia nō naʻe, lawa nā kālena a Dick e lilo ai i mea hoʻolālā kūleʻa, ʻoiai ʻaʻole paha e like me Paul. ʻO ka pilikia, ʻaʻohe ona hoʻoholo kūpono. ʻO kahi laʻana, i hoʻokahi manawa, hana pū ʻo Dick lāua ʻo Paul i nā hoʻolālā hale no ka hoʻokūkū. Ua koho ke kūlanakauhale i kahi kālā nui no kahi hale hōʻikeʻike hou, a manaʻo nā kāne ʻōpio ʻelua e waiho i nā hoʻolālā. Ke ʻike ʻo Dick i nā sketch a Paul, hoʻonāwaliwali loa ʻo ia ma kahi o ka manaʻo e hoʻoikaika i ka hana.

E like me ka manawa e loaʻa ai, hopu ʻo Paul i ka niumonia ma hope koke iho o ka hoʻopau ʻana i kāna hoʻolālā ponoʻī no ka hoʻokūkū. Ua waiho ʻo ia i kahi leka na Dick, e ʻae iā ia e hoʻohana i kāna hoʻolālā no ka hoʻokūkū. ʻAʻole ola ʻo Paul mai kāna maʻi a make koke ma hope. ʻO Dick, ka leka a Paul ma ka lima, hoʻowalewale ʻia e hoʻohana i ka hoʻolālā a kāna hoaaloha. No kekahi manawa, manaʻo ʻo ia e hala iā ia nāna. Akā ʻike ʻo Dick ke nānā aku nei kona makuahine iā ia a ua ʻike i kāna mau manaʻo. ʻOiai ʻaʻole ʻo ia e ʻōlelo iki, nānā ke alo i kāna mau impulses. I ka hopena, hoʻoholo ʻo ia e haʻalele loa i ka hoʻokūkū, e ʻōlelo ana i kona makuahine:

Makemake wau e ʻike ʻoe i kāu hana ʻana — inā ʻoe e hoʻokuʻu i kahi manawa inā wau i hele i lalo — a inā wau e hele i lalo ʻaʻole wau e ola hou.

ʻO ka manaʻo o Dick e "hele i lalo" ʻo ia me ka maka ʻole o ka maka o kona makuahine, inā ua hoʻohana ʻo ia i nā sketch a Paul a lanakila i ka hoʻokūkū ma lalo o nā hana hoʻopunipuni, ʻo ia kāna hana a me kāna hana. Hōʻike ʻia ke ʻano o Dick e loaʻa kahi kumu pono. ʻAʻole ia e uhaʻi i ke code o ka hanohano. Akā ke waiho nei ka hihia: ʻoiai ʻaʻole ia e ʻae i nā hoʻowalewale maikaʻi loa, nele ʻo ia i nā ʻano pono e pono ai e kūleʻa. Ua nele ʻo ia, e like me kā mākou e ʻōlelo nei i kēia lā, grit. Kūpono loa ʻo Dick i ka kānalua a me ke kanalua ʻole.

ʻO kekahi o nā pilikia ma aneʻi, pono e hoʻomaopopo ʻia, ʻo ka lele ʻana mai kahi hana a kahi hana ʻē aʻe i kekahi manawa e hoʻoulu ʻia e nā kumu maikaʻi, e maʻalahi ai ka noʻonoʻo ʻana a me ka hoʻopunipuni ponoʻī ma nā hihia ʻē aʻe. ʻO ka mea mua, aia kekahi mea e ʻōlelo ʻia no ka hāʻule ʻole ʻana i ka hāʻule o ke kumu kūʻai. Ua hoʻolimalima kēlā mea i ʻekolu mau makahiki i ke kula med, no ka laʻana, ʻaʻole ia he kumu e lilo ai i kauka i nā koina āpau inā paha ua kaumaha loa kekahi ma ke ʻano he haumāna olakino a nānā ʻole i mua e hoʻomaʻamaʻa ma ke ʻano he kauka. Ma hope o nā mea āpau, kuhi hewa, huli i ka huli hewa, a ʻike koke ʻo ia i kēia, ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi. ʻAʻole hiki iā ʻoe ke uku no nā makahiki nalowale ʻekolu ma ka lilo ʻana o ʻekolu mau mea, a i ʻole kanakolu.

ʻO ka lua, ʻaʻole maopopo mau iā mākou he aha ko mākou ikaika. He ʻoiaʻiʻo aia paha kahi māla āu i ʻike ai no ka ʻike ʻole. ʻO kēia ke kumu he mea maikaʻi e hāʻawi i ka poʻe ʻōpio i ka manawa kūpono e hoʻokolohua a ʻike i kā lākou mau talena ponoʻī.

I ka pane ʻana i ka helu mua, eia naʻe, e hoʻomaopopo he ʻokoʻa ʻo Dick me ka haumāna olakino i ʻike ʻia ʻaʻole hoihoi ʻo ia i ka biology a me ka anatomy a i ʻole, makemake ʻole ʻo ia i ka ʻike o nā nila. Hāʻawi ʻo Dick i kāna mau ʻimi ʻokoʻa like ʻole no ka mea ua ʻike ʻo ia i kahi kūlike ʻole ma waena o kahi hana i hāʻawi ʻia a me kāna ʻano ponoʻī, akā no ka mea ua nāwaliwali ʻo ia e nā ʻōlelo hōʻino iki. ʻAʻohe mea akā ʻo ka hoʻomaikaʻi ke hoʻomau iā ia e hele, a ʻoiai ʻaʻole hiki mau ka hoʻomaikaʻi, hoʻomohala ʻo ia i kahi ʻano o ka hāʻawi ʻana. ʻO kēlā hana maʻa i ke kanaka hana kēlā me kēia alualu i kahi kūpono maikaʻi ʻole. ʻAʻohe ala kūpono no kahi self-saboteur a me kahi quitter.

E pili ana i ka lua o ka helu, hiki i kekahi ke hoʻopaʻapaʻa e ʻike ʻia ka hiki maoli, kekahi ala a i ʻole kekahi. Akā inā ʻaʻole pēlā, ʻaʻole lawa ka ola o ke kanaka e hoʻāʻo i nā mea āpau (ʻaʻole hoʻi e kākoʻo kekahi iā mākou kālā e hoʻomau i ka ʻimi ʻana). He ʻoiaʻiʻo paha e ʻike paha mākou i kā mākou manawa kūpono maikaʻi loa no ka hoʻāʻo ʻole ʻana i kahi mea e maikaʻi loa ai mākou, akā inā ʻaʻole mākou e pili me kekahi mea, e hala mākou i nā manawa kūpono āpau. Me ka hoʻonā ʻole, ʻaʻole mākou e kau i ka hana e pono ai e hoʻoholo i ka nui o ka ʻike i loaʻa iā mākou no kahi hana i hāʻawi ʻia. Inā hoʻomaʻamaʻa wale ʻoe i ka violin no ʻelua mau lā, ʻaʻole ʻoe e ʻike inā he violinist maikaʻi loa ʻoe.

Aia kekahi pilikia hope e makemake wau e haʻi. Pili ia i kā Dick kālele ana i ka hopena hope loa ma mua o ke kaʻina hana o kona ala i ka pahuhopu. I hoʻokahi manawa, ua nīnau ka makuahine o Dick iā ia e pili ana i ka hoʻolālā no ka hoʻokūkū. Wahi a ia e pili ana ka mākaukau i ka papahana a pono ʻo ia e lanakila i ka hoʻokūkū i kēia manawa. Wahi a Wharton i kēia no ka hana a ka makuahine:

Noho mālie ʻo Mrs. Peyton, e noʻonoʻo ana i kona helehelena ʻula a me nā maka i hoʻomālamalama ʻia, ʻo ia nā mea o ka mea lanakila e hoʻokokoke ana i ka pahuhopu ma mua o ka mea holo e hoʻomaka wale ana i ka heihei. Hoʻomanaʻo ʻo ia i kahi mea a Darrow [hoa hoa loea loea o Dick] i ʻōlelo ai nona ma mua: “ʻIke mau ʻo Dick i ka hopena.”

ʻO ia, ʻo ia ka pōʻino a Dick. Ma kekahi ʻaoʻao, ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia ua eo i ke kakahiaka nui loa. Hāʻawi maʻalahi ʻo ia; pau ka manawa, haʻalele ʻo ia. Akā ʻike koke ʻo ia i ka laina hoʻopau. No laila, ʻoiai he nui nā hoʻomaka hoʻohiki a Dick, ʻaʻole ia e lawe i kekahi mea i ka hopena. Hōʻike ʻo ia i ka lanakila ma mua a ma mua hoʻi, ʻono ʻo ia i ka lanakila.