E ke kaikuahine aloha ʻino e inaina mai nei iaʻu

I kēia lā, ma hope o ʻelua mau makahiki o ka hāmau, hiki mai kahi leka uila mai iā ʻoe, nā huaʻōlelo i nā pāpale wiwo ʻole huhū. Lulu koʻu mau lima i koʻu heluhelu ʻana: Ke hoʻowahāwahā nei wau iā ʻoe. No ke aha ʻoe e make ʻole ai. Manaʻo ʻoe ua hana wau i kahi mea hiki ʻole ke kala ʻia. Akā ʻaʻole maopopo iaʻu he aha ia. ʻO nā mea aʻu e ʻike ai ua loli loa kou ʻano a ʻaʻole au i ʻike pehea e noho hou ai me ʻoe.

ʻAʻole pēlā pinepine kēia, ʻeā? Ua ulu pū ʻoe me aʻu ma ke ʻano he kaikuahine aloha, ʻehā ou mau makahiki ma mua oʻu. Heluhelu a kākau mākou ʻelua i nā manawa āpau, e hoʻopiha nei i nā pads me kā mākou "novels." ʻO ʻoe ka mea nāna wau i aʻo mai iaʻu pehea e hao ai i koʻu lauoho lauoho, ka mea i pale mai iaʻu mai ka naʻau hoʻomāinoino o koʻu makuakāne, nāna i mālama iaʻu mai ka huhū koke o koʻu makuahine, nāna i hāwanawana iaʻu a ʻakaʻaka mai iaʻu. Ma ke ʻano ʻōpio, ʻo ʻoe, makaʻu ʻole a nani hoʻi, ua kono iaʻu i kāu mau huakaʻi me kāu ipo kāne, ke kolo nei iaʻu i loko o nā hui a me nā pāʻina.

ʻLelo lākou hiki i kahi hoʻololi pilikino ke hoʻomaka i ka wā makua a ʻo ia paha ka mea i loaʻa iā ʻoe. ʻO ʻoe, ka mea hiki ke loaʻa iā ʻoe kahi kāne āu e makemake ai, ua haʻalele i ke koleke a ua male ʻia ma 19, kahi keikikāne, koʻikoʻi a hewa ʻole iā ʻoe a uē wau, "Mai hana i kēia," i kāu male ʻana. A laila boom, ua neʻe ʻoe i kahi mokuʻāina ʻē aʻe, a laila boom, hāpai ʻoe, me kahi keikikāne a laila he kaikamahine. A i koʻu hiki ʻana mai e kipa, ua loli nā mea āpau. Ua kaumaha ʻoe e ka makuahine a me ka male ʻana. ʻAʻole ʻoe e ʻōlelo iaʻu, ma ka pahu ʻana iaʻu e hoʻi i ka home. "ʻAʻole hauʻoli wale wau," i ʻōlelo ʻoe. "E hala ana ia."

Hiki, e hoʻopono kākou ma aneʻi. ʻAʻole wau i ʻike i ka hohonu o kou hauʻoli ʻole. Ua hana nui wau i ka nahelehele ma ke koleke, e hiamoe ana ma o ka pīʻāpā ma Brandeis. ʻAʻole ʻoe i ʻae a ʻōlelo mai he ʻoi aku koʻu kūpaʻa, akā ʻaʻole ʻoe i ʻae i koʻu neʻe ʻana i New York City, ʻo ia hoʻi, i ʻōlelo ʻia he haumia a weliweli hoʻi.

Ua haʻalele wau iā ʻoe ma hope o kēlā, a hiki i ka hele ʻana o kāu kaikamahine ʻo Hillary i ka papa ʻekolu a loaʻa koke kahi moʻolelo āna i kākau ai i loko o kaʻu pahu leka, e pili ana i kahi kaikamahine mehameha e hele e ʻike i kāna "ʻanakē pupule ma New York City," a ʻo wai hoʻopakele ʻia e kahi ʻiole. "ʻO wau anei kēia?" Ua nīnau wau iā ʻoe, e haʻohaʻo ana i kāu mea i haʻi aku ai iā ia e pili ana iaʻu, no ke aha ʻo ia i hoʻohana ai i ka huaʻōlelo "pupule." "ʻAʻole nō," i ʻōlelo ʻoe, "ʻo ka iole ke koa, ʻaʻole ʻo ʻoe," akā noʻonoʻo nō naʻe wau. Ua kāhea wau i kāu kaikamahine e haʻi iā ia i koʻu aloha i ka moʻolelo. Palupalu kona leo a hilahila hoʻi, a ua lohe wau iā ʻoe e walaʻau ana iā ia e hoʻopaʻa ʻole i ke kelepona. ʻO kahi mea momona maikaʻi ʻole, manaʻo wau. Maliʻa paha e ʻike wau iā ia.

Akā ʻaʻole wau i makemake e hele i kou kaona puʻupuʻu liʻiliʻi. Makemake au iā ʻoukou e kipa mai iaʻu ma Manhattan, akā ʻo ka mea ʻāpiki, ʻo ʻoe ka mea i hele nui i mua, makaʻu i nā mea āpau. ʻAʻole ʻoe huakaʻi. ʻO ʻoe, he kumu aʻo hōkū ʻoe ma mua, ua kipaku ʻia ʻoe no ka mea āu i ʻōlelo ai he kumu pohihihi. Ua lilo kou mau hoaaloha no ka mea ua ʻōlelo ʻoe ua kumakaia lākou iā ʻoe.

Ua hoʻāʻo wau e hoʻohauʻoli iā ʻoe. I koʻu hoʻouna ʻana aku iā ʻoe i nā puke aʻu i aloha ai, ua haʻi ʻoe iaʻu ua pilau lākou. I ka wā aʻu i hoʻouna aku ai iā ʻoe i kahi lole, ua ʻimi ʻoe i luna a leka uila iā iaʻu. I kekahi lā ma Facebook, ua hoʻouka ʻoe i koʻu mau hoaaloha a pau ma ke kūkākūkā e pili ana i ke ʻano o ke aloha o mākou āpau i nā hale kūʻai waiwai. Ua kapa aku ʻoe iā lākou he mau ʻīlio naʻaupō waena e pono ke loaʻa nā hana. Ke kūʻē ka poʻe, ua haʻi ʻoe iā lākou e hele i ka ʻūlū iā lākou iho, a pono wau e ālai iā ʻoe.

ʻAʻole mākou i ʻōlelo no kekahi mau mahina. ʻAʻole a hiki i ka make ʻana o kaʻu wahine hoʻopalau, a ua noi aku au iā ʻoe e hele mai me aʻu. Ua hōʻole ʻoe, e ʻōlelo ana he anu kāu keiki. ʻAʻole ia a hiki i ko māua makuahine, ke ola nei nō ia i kēlā manawa, pili, hiki ʻoe, no ka hapalua hola ma mua o kou haʻalele. ʻAʻole ʻoe i launa pū me aʻu no hoʻokahi makahiki ʻoiai wau e luʻu i ke kaumaha, a i ka hopena, no ka mea ua haʻo wau a aloha aku iā ʻoe, ua kāhea wau iā ʻoe. ʻAʻole ʻoe i kala aku. Ma kahi o ia mea, ua hāwanawana ʻoe a ʻōlelo maila, "E hoʻāʻo wau e hana ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi." Aloha wau iā ʻoe, no laila ua manaʻoʻiʻo wau iā ʻoe.

ʻAʻole ʻoe i ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi. Akā me ka hoʻohoka ʻole, ua hana kāu kaikamahine. I ka piha ʻana iā ia he ʻumikūmālima, ua noi ʻo ia inā hiki iā ia ke kipa mai iaʻu a me kaʻu kāne ʻo Jeff, no ka hopena pule lōʻihi. "Wahi a koʻu makuahine ua maikaʻi," i ʻōlelo ʻo ia, nāna i hoʻopūʻiwa iaʻu. I kona hōʻea ʻana mai, ua helehelena a kūpilikiʻi kona helehelena. ʻOiaʻiʻo, ua hoʻokipa mākou iā ia! ʻO ia kāu kaikamahine, ʻeā? Ua ulu a maʻalahi ʻo ia e haʻi iā mākou i kona ʻano hauʻoli ʻole, pehea ʻo ia i koi ʻia ai e lilo i waena ou, e kāhea ana i nā poʻe āu e makemake ai e ʻike, e lawe ana i ka hewa no nā mea āu i hana ai. Hoʻowahāwahā mau ʻoe iā ia. ʻAʻole hiki iā ia ke hele i nā wahi, loaʻa nā hoaaloha, hoʻoholo.

No ke aha ʻoe i ʻae ai iā ia e hele mai i aneʻi? Ua haʻi mai kāu kaikamahine iā mākou no ka mea makemake ʻoe i ka manawa wale nō. ʻAʻole ʻoe makemake i ke ʻano o kona helehelena a kāhea ʻoe iā ia he eo, hūpō, waiwai ʻole. Ua kāhea ʻoe iā ia i kahi slut no ka mea ke aloha nei ʻo ia. Ua haʻi ʻoe iā ia ua like ʻo ia me aʻu. “Akā he mea maikaʻi paha kēlā,” i ʻōlelo malū ai kāu kaikamahine a ʻapo akula au iā ia.

Ma hope o ka hoʻi ʻana o Hillary i ka home, ua kāhea aku wau iā ʻoe, e ka makaʻu, akā ua hōʻole ʻoe i nā mea āpau. "Ke wahaheʻe nei ʻo Hillary," i koi aku ai ʻoe. Akā hiki ke ʻike ʻia kēlā kaumaha nāna.

ʻIke koke, ʻo wau a me kāu kaikamahine me he mau planeta mehameha ʻelua i kiola ʻia i waho o kāu orbit, lele i waho, a hoʻomaka mākou e ʻike i ka huki gravitasi a kekahi. I kekahi manawa ua manaʻo mākou ʻo mākou wale nō ʻelua i ʻike i ke ʻano o ka ulu ʻana i kāu hui, kahi o mākou nā hewa āpau. ʻAʻole ʻoe pupule, haʻi mākou i kekahi i kekahi. ʻAʻole he mea kupanaha, ua ʻōlelo mākou, makaʻu mākou ʻelua i nā manawa āpau, makemake nui ʻia e makemake ʻia, a weliweli hoʻi i ka huhū, keu hoʻi ke kaohi ʻole ʻia. Hoʻomaka mākou e kākau a kāhea kekahi i kekahi, e hoʻokokoke aku ana.

A ʻo ia ka wā āu i uē ai, "Pono ʻoe e haʻalele i kaʻu kaikamahine." Ua hana ʻoe i kahi hana keaka e hōʻoia iaʻu. ʻO ka mea mua, he hōʻeha puʻuwai ia i kahi hoʻouka panic. A laila ua kū kekahi poʻo poʻokela kaʻa i kū ʻole. ʻAʻole ʻoe i ʻike i kekahi mea hewa me ka hacking ʻana i nā leka uila a Hillary a me ka heluhelu ʻana i kā mākou leka āpau. Ma kahi o ka hewa, he wahaheʻe mākou iā ʻoe. "E haʻalele i kaʻu kaikamahine," i ʻōlelo hou aku ʻoe. Akā pehea e hiki ai iaʻu ke ho'ōki i ka hoʻohuiʻana i ka mea e hoʻopakele nei iaʻu, nāna wau i manaʻo he waiwai no ka meaʻo wau, i koʻu ala pono'ī, e hoʻopakele iā ia?

Akā ʻaʻole ʻo kāu kaikamahine wale nō āu i makemake ʻole ai iaʻu e ʻike. Ke male a kāu kaikamahine a laila hānau pēpē, makemake ʻoe e mālama wau iā lākou pū kekahi. Ma kahi o, ua hui koʻu ʻohana a me ia ma Ocean City, a ke ʻike ʻoe i kahi kiʻi i kau ʻia ma Facebook, ua kāhea mai ʻoe iaʻu me ka huhū. Ua manaʻo wau ʻaʻole ʻoe i ʻike e pili ana i kēia hoʻolālā e lawe i kāu kaikamahine mai ou aku, ua uē ʻoe? Ua kono wau iā ʻoe e hele pū me mākou, akā ua kau ʻoe.

He Pollyanna wau, ka mea hoʻopaʻa o ka ʻohana, a ua hoʻāʻo wau me ʻoe. Ua noi aku wau iā ʻoe e ʻike i kahi mea hoʻoponopono no ka mea ua noʻonoʻo wau he ʻano maʻi paha ia e hiki ke kōkua ʻia me ka lāʻau. Ua hāʻawi wau iā ʻoe i nā papa kākau. Huakaʻi e kipa aku ai. Ua hōʻole ʻoe i nā mea āpau, akā pehea wau e hōʻoki ai i ka makemake e kōkua i ka poʻe aʻu i aloha ai?

ʻO kāu kaikamahine kēlā. Ua noi hilahila ʻo ia inā hiki iā ia ke hōʻike iaʻu i kahi kākau. "ʻ sayslelo koʻu makuahine he hana ʻole ʻole wau," ua haʻi ʻo ia iaʻu. "Ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia ʻaʻole wau e uku i kekahi mea."

"Maopopo iā ʻoe ʻaʻole ia he ʻoiaʻiʻo," i ʻōlelo au.

"ʻAʻole, ʻaʻole."

Ua heluhelu au i ka puke moʻolelo i hoʻokahi swoop, gobsmacked. Ua hiki iaʻu ke kākau. Me he mea lā ua kaʻana like mākou i ka DNA like. I koʻu haʻi ʻana aku iā ia i kona maikaʻi, luliluli ʻo ia i kona poʻo. "ʻAʻole, weliweli loa wau," koi ʻo ia. No laila ua hōʻike wau iā ia i nā paukū nani, nā ʻaoʻao i uē ai iaʻu. Lawe wau i ka puke i kaʻu ʻelele, nāna i hāʻawi koke iā Hillary i moho. "E haʻi aku i kou makuahine," Ua koi aku wau iā ia. Ua noʻonoʻo wau i kou hauʻoli. Ua manaʻo wau e pili hou mākou a pau, akā ma kahi o ka ʻuwā ʻana, ua hoʻopiʻi ʻoe iaʻu no ke kākau ʻana i ka puke a kāu kaikamahine.

"ʻAʻole ke kanaka āu i aloha ai i ka ulu ʻana aʻe," i haʻi mai kaʻu kāne iaʻu. “E hoʻokuʻu. ʻAʻole hiki iā ʻoe ke hana i kekahi e aloha iā ʻoe nā mea aloha ʻole. ”

“No ke aha hiki ʻole iā ʻoe?” Ua ʻōlelo wau.

Ua hala ʻelua mau makahiki i kēia manawa, a ʻaʻole ʻoe i ʻike a kamaʻilio mai iaʻu a i ʻole kāu kaikamahine a i ʻole nā ​​moʻopuna. Hōʻole ʻoe i ka pane ʻana i kaʻu mau kāhea, kaʻu mau leka uila. Hōʻole ʻoe i ke kuleana no kekahi o ia mea a ʻaʻole ʻoe e kala aku. ʻAʻole pili ka nīnau ʻohana iā ʻoe. ʻAe, weliweli, weliweli, a ʻeha hoʻi. Ke kū mai kahi leka uila huhū, ʻaʻole pono wau e wehewehe i ka ʻeha, ke kuko i kāu kaikamahine no ka mea ua ʻike ʻo ia iā ia iho, a ke kāhea mai kāu kaikamahine iaʻu e huhū mai kahi mea maikaʻi ʻole āu i haʻi aku ai iā ia, kōkua wau iā ia, empathizing, haʻi iā ia ikaika a nani ʻo ia a kālena ʻia.

No laila ʻo kēia, ka hopena o kā mākou moʻolelo, maliʻa.

E nalo anei ke aloha? Ke kala a lana paha ka manaʻo?

Ua eo wau iā ʻoe. Akā ua loaʻa iaʻu kāu kaikamahine.

Ua paʻi ʻia kēia manaʻo i loko o ka manawa lōʻihi ma ʻO ke Keʻena Manifest .